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If I told you everything about Costa Rica, and believe me - I want to, you would get tired of reading before I got finished typing. In my last post I said, "I won't pretend like its ungodly hot or the poverty here is overwhelming. We are ministering in a part of town that has running water and most of the time it's hot."


I was, however, overwhelmed. I was taken over with exhaustion, pain, and the idea that the family down the street didn't know Jesus. Neither did the lady next to them. "We can't go down that road," my national told me, "we may not make it back out." As my eyes raised up from the street to see which road she was talking about, I saw the groups of guys standing outside their houses. They sold drugs and they were dangerous. So dangerous that the police drove by that road as quickly as they could. As we continued to walk, I felt it. It pulled my back like a magnet. I couldn't stop thinking about it. God wanted me to pray for that street, I was sure of it. I kept walking with my national and tried my best to ignore it because well, in that moment, I wanted to resist the Spirit.

(this is not the exact one. as you can imagine, 

I don't have a picture of that road.)

Boldness is not something we have on our own. Sure, some have more than others and for some of us it comes more natural. But when it comes to the Gospel, there is only one source of boldness and courage: God Almighty. This little boy received Christ, and the next day at school shared the Gospel with 8 of his friends. Ironically enough, his name is Christian. Thank you, Father for reminders like this precious boy.

Our second day at the local church, I saw a lady outside the gate. I knew she cooked for the church so I went out to let her in but she told me she didn't need in. Between my broken Spanish and her slow words, I figured out that she was going to the doctor for her heart. I grabbed a translator because I wanted details. Her heart was 80% bad and she was going for a check-up. "Can I please pray for you," I insisted. "Of course," she smiled. I prayed. Hugo translated. Christina cried out to her Healer. Christina left. I went on about my day. Hugo went back inside. The next day I saw Christina at the church and she had something for me. It was a beautiful heart necklace and she said, "Thank you." When I asked about her heart, she smiled and joy filled her face. She doesn't need to go back to the doctor until a year from now because her heart is fine now. The necklace was to remember her. This is Christina..

As much as I shared in Costa Rica, I learned a whole lot more. My team was mostly made up of people from PA but also Houston, TX, Phoenix, AZ, Chattanooga, TN and then me... Hattiesburg, MS :) I taught Emmie that it's ok to walk barefoot and we have the pictures to prove she lived through it. (She thought she wouldn't.) 

I learned (1) to wrap my own ankle and (2) that God's building of His Kingdom does not stop for a twisted, bruised body part. This is a few days after it happened and it actually looks really good here. There is no way I should have been able to walk around all day on this bad boy but like I said - His Kingdom stops for no one. HE is my healer. HE is my sustainer.

 I added a lot to my Spanish vocabulary.

I learned what it means to serve others selflessly. I also learned that I absolutely cannot do that without the power of God living inside me. 

I learned to love these girls!! 

 I learned to sleep where ever I could find a place to be still. 

I learned to appreciate my comforts back home.

I learned to walk in the rain, arm in arm with the ones who mean the most :)

 I learned what it means to fall in love instantly with a group of people you do not know - but we share one thing: we need Jesus.

 I learned that using a translator effectively is harder than you think.

 I learned to zipline hundreds of feet in the air over God's amazing creation. 

I learned that I can fly/travel alone because I'm never really alone anyway, I now appreciate a meal without rice and beans, and I learned to not flush toilet paper... gross, I know. 

Sometimes, when I think about it long enough, I could cry because I miss them so much. The memories I will forever cherish make my heart smile when I remember them. Thank You Lord for choosing me. Thank You for equipping me. Thank You for allowing me.

To Prayer Warriors and supporters,

I wish I could tell you exactly what your support has done for my recent trip, but words will never suffice. We serve a truly indescribable God and because of you, I was able to experience Him a thousand new ways in Costa Rica. I can say "thank you" every time I see you- but your true reward awaits. During our short stay we saw miracles, healing, restoration, new hope, and salvation all distributed from our Father. We saw people's lives change in an instant right before our very eyes. One thing is for sure: God has NOT forgotten Costa Rica. And because of you and God Almighty's grace, I was allowed to witness it all. 

I will never forget your love,

Ashli  

It's Different Here...

They told us before we left to clear our expectations. To not expect anything because anything can happen. How right they were.

I won't pretend like its ungodly hot or the poverty here is overwhelming. We are ministering in a part of town that has running water and most of the time it's hot. The air in the mountain (where we are staying) is cool and at night I can hear the wind beating fiercely against my window. Although it's sometimes scary, I wouldn't trade it for heat. Even when we go down to the city, it's not too bad. The ride is bumpy and I want to throw up every time. But once we get there and I see Saraita running toward me with candy or ice cream or whatever she bought me that day, I forget that my stomach is still settling from the bumps and holes in the road. This is Sarita:

My ankle is still swelling by the day and turning funny colors but our Father has provided for me to be able to walk. I was playing futbol (soccer) in a field when my foot planted in a hole and sprained my ankle. This  is the soccer "field" we were playing in:

And this is Chad wrapping it. Such a good Sports Outreach Coordinator (or whatever his official title is)

My translator is awesome and my national is amazing. It's no wonder the pastors here are so burdened for their country. The people are so sweet. So open. When I ask someone how I can pray for them, sometimes I get more than I wanted to know. This would never happen in the states. We're way too put-together to let anyone knock on our door, tell us about their God, and then tell them about all the problems in our lives and how they can pray. Oh, but here.... here it different. Here, there are lost people everywhere you turn but they are hungry. They are hungry and receptive. They cannot wait to share their new hope with their friends. It's not like that at home. But here... here is different. 

At home I'm intimidated to share Jesus with some people. Will I embarrass them? Will my words be persuasive enough to make them want to live for Him? But not here, here is different. In Costa Rica, people talk loudly and they don't care who hears. My nationals are bold and have courage like you  have never seen. 

I'm sure I will eventually tell stories of my time in Costa Rica. Many people I have met are story-worthy. But for now, as I soak it all up and take it all in, one verse is so relevant for everything happening here. 

"But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world." 1 John 4:4

Painting Finger Nails

* this post is actually from yesterday but I, obviously didn't have internet access when I wrote it *

today is the day. it's not just talk anymore. it's normally a rather long process - dragging me out of bed. oh, but not today. for today is the beginning of a beautiful adventure with my Savior.

as mom paints my finger nails, i wonder how long these coats will last before i have to touch them up again. before i have to fill in the parts that scratch or peel off. as i look down at my freshly pink finger nails, i'm pleased. because my mom, who is a master nail painter, has done well. in my bedroom is playing david crowder's musical stylings of "like a lion." as i approach my door i can feel my adrenaline start to rush. "my God is not dead. He's surely alive and He's living on the inside roaring like a lion." oh, dear reader, our God is certainly not dead. He is living in us- in the deepest parts of us that no one ever sees and the parts we hope no one ever will. i cannot wait to tell some costa ricans how alive He truly is.

as i finish packing my last minute items, i think about how God must look at me the same way i look at my newly decorated finger nails- pleased. for He has taken off the old color, buffed and filed away at the edges, layer one... layer two... top coat. He has prepared me for what's to come in the following days. layer after layer He has poured out His wisdom and love on this helpless sinner and sealed it with a top coat. as mom painted on the last layer i commented, "the clear coat always makes it so much better. so shiny and pretty." and at the end of the manicure, i suppose He looks down, and is pleased. for He is a master at what He does. and He, the master refiner, has done well.

knowing that i will undoubtedly scratch and peel some places off and He will have to touch them up. still, He paints happily. for He is a mater at what He does.

9 Days...

9 days ago it was the beginning of a new month that would bring lots of changes. Birthday season, my family likes to call it, change of color on the trees, change of weather patterns, change of seasons all together, and a change in my everyday routine. My sister, dad, cousins, great-grandmother, and myself all share a birthday season. The colors on the trees are beyond words at times and the weather is almost perfect when it's starting to turn cold. And most importantly, the change in my daily routine: Costa Rica.              In 9 days I will be getting on an airplane in New Orleans, LA and after a connecting flight or two, I'll land in San Jose, Costa Rica. I'll be there for 9 days. I can't exactly explain my expectations because they aren't very specific. I know that I will see God. His handprint is all over the place, we just choose not to see it sometimes. I cannot wait to see it in Costa Rica.

My journey of preparation started out slow. I was added to the team late so I had approximately a month and a half to raise funds, gather lots of information, meet my teammates via Skype, and prepare myself spiritually and mentally. I suppose I did most of this out of order because the practical stuff came first. After getting over the fears of traveling alone and with a team of people I'd never met, I began to focus on funds. I immediately sent out support letters and got very few responses. I wasn't discouraged because I knew I still had time. As weeks went by, life happened and I got distracted. I thought about the trip frequently but did nothing to proactively prepare neither tangibly nor spiritually. 

In the last 15 days, however, I have received my "Go Kit" from iamsecond.com complete with a bag, t-shirt, eCubes, prayer bracelets, prayer journals, guidebooks, literature, iamsecond business cards, and more.
My teammate Mandy blogged that receiving this kit made the trip become real to her. I'd have to agree.

Last Sunday, my home church announced my trip and that I'd be in the lobby after the service with a sheet for people to join our team by being be a prayer warrior. I'll be honest, I expected that list to be made up of people older than me; People from the generation above me. But to my surprise, one after one, college students came by to say that would pray for me and sign up. As I gave them a prayer bracelet most smiled and said, "I'll be praying." There were a few who jokingly said, "Sure I guess I'll pray... if I have to." But all in all, they said they would pray. And to me, that is worth more than if they'd said they were funding the whole trip. To witness my generation expressing such a passion for Jesus - well, it's incredible. To hear them say, "I'm just a broke college kid, but I'm going to pray for your team and the Costa Ricans you encounter." Wow. 

Along with my parents, my close friends have been unbelievably supportive. 

KK has listened to me vent fears and battles and struggles more times than he probably wanted. I call him brother and he calls me sister.

Laura, all the way from Haiti, has told me time and time again that our God is going to work it out. I miss her more than I can explain. 

J has been SUCH a prayer warrior, interceding for me, throughout this whole process. Her daughter prays for me too. 

I couldn't have asked for more encouragement from Jillian, and Erin (while being a broke college kid, haha) donated to my trip as a birthday gift to me. 

Erin is on the left, in the Saints shirt. 

Sweet Jillian! 

And I'm MOST excited to report what God has done. Sunday afternoon I had $700 in my trip account and every single day since then, I have prayed, 

"Lord, I have no idea where this money is going to come from. You do. And I trust You. I'm so scared. But I trust You." 

Today I checked and I have $1300. In three days... really, God? I e-mailed my AWESOME team leader, Yvonne, and told her to go ahead and take out some of my money for the sports ministry equipment that we need because I don't feel like God is finished providing. He has been so faithful that it sometimes blows my mind. The fact that I even have this opportunity is crazy and He just keeps making it better.

Thank you Father, for knowing me. Thank you for going before me and after me and never leaving me anywhere in between. You are so holy and gracious. Thank you for being sovereign over all things, including this one. Amen.  


In 9 days I will board a plane in the U.S. and land in San Jose. For 9 days I will experience the love and power of Jesus in another culture with people who have never heard His name. For 18 days... I hope that you will be praying :) 

Contently Confused

If there were ever a time that I was perfectly content with feeling displaced and confused, tis now. I know that sentence seems to contradict itself, but it's a bit hard for me to explain. Content ... with being ... confused?? I'd like this post to reach a climax and end with some big bang of a spiritual revelation. However, tonight, I will write about my feelings...

Recently, more than ever, I have begun to realize the unique situation I have found myself in. For new readers, I graduated college 6 months ago and now have what I'd like to call a "big girl job." I'm soon to be 25 years old (my birthday is Monday, yay!) - I'm single- I don't have kids - and I'm out of school. This does not describe many people I know right now. Actually, I can only think of three. I have friends who are still in college, and I love them dearly, but we are in two different worlds. If I go to bed past 9:30pm I consider it a "late night," while my college friends are just beginning their night. They make spontaneous trips to each other's apartments and randomly go to Taco Bell at 11:30pm. By the time I'm getting off work for the day, they are heading to the library to study for the evening. My 'adult' friends are in another world as well. Of my three closest friends who are out of college - one is married with two daughters, one is engaged, and one is in Haiti. How's that for variety?

So, where do I fit in? It's crazy how content God has made me about this. As I stare at the purity ring on my finger, I can't help but think about the rings that may replace it one day; What they will mean, what they will represent, and if any of that will even happen. When I look at a paycheck stub, I can't help but wonder what that will grow to in the next year. (Let's hope it grows significantly... for my parent's sake, haha!) When I look at my friends who are amazing mothers, I cannot help but be so very grateful that it's her and not me. :) This is such a weird, sometimes stagnant, yet exciting time in my life. As I prepare to leave for Costa Rica, I think about the endless opportunities for a young single girl with nothing holding her back. "What I would give to have those days back sometimes," my more settled friends say to me.

When I ponder this long enough, I'm reminded to chat with God about it. When I chat with God about it long enough, I'm reminded to trust Him, rest in Him, and be content with His decisions. When I trust Him long enough, I'm reminded of all the times I have thought to myself, "I'm so glad my Father knows better than me."

So, at the end of the day, when I lay my head on my extremely soft pillow that I cannot travel without, I look at the TLW ring on left finger and thank Him for being in control, so I don't have to be. I thank Him for using this time of my life, that sometimes feels pointless, to prepare me for something bigger. Sometimes I ask where He wants to send me next and other times I just say "send me." But regardless, when it's all said and done, I just thank Him for knowing me.